I started a new medication lately, called Abilify.. It comes in a weird little pill, so small that it gets lost in my mouth, and I don’t even know when I’ve swallowed it. I think it makes me a bit nauseous, and every day, sometime in between 4 and 6 pm, I feel … wrong. My head aches, mildly, and life makes me unhappy. It doesn’t last long, and is minor enough that I find it interesting rather than upsetting.
The hope is that Abilify will help me lose weight as well as support my mental health. I have doubts about the weight loss, but am willing to give it old the college try. Olanzapine has worked well on my brain but has not been so good for my physical health, and Abilify may be able to succeed where Olanzapine has failed.
But it’s my low intensity exercise class that I think is of most benefit to me physically and it comes a close second to my drugs where my mental health is concerned. I am able to get what for me is a workout, among people who are similarly disabled by pain, breathing problems, and/or weight-related issues We’re all trying to do better, go farther and longer, and although we’ll never make the Olympics, our small gains (or losses, as the case may be) are reason to celebrate.
If Abilify does what its name seems to imply, making me more able (to get around the gym, lose weight and keep out of hospital) then it’s worth a little headache and unhappiness. And if it lets me add a few more steps to my pedometer total, I’ll dedicate a poem to it.”Abilify me!”